Guess I Got My Swagga Back

Its always nice to get compliments, reckless eyeballs, and smirks from cuties on the street. For the most part, they love me in the Bronx and I have come to expect to get a little extra attention. On the island of Manhattan, however; dat na go so ( patois for that shit does not go down). I can't say why that is. So imagine my surprise when things changed today. I'm walking down 145th street (on the count of the 19 bus taking forever and me figuring since I was on my way to Zumba, I'd use this walk as a warm up) and I'm wearing leggings, a hoodie, sneakers, and a make-shift ponytail (not the flyest but fuck it its Saturday morning and this is a workout after all). Next thing I know, cutie with the peanut shaped head is giving me the once over twice, smiles, and says hello. I smile back and "put a little twist in my hips cuz he's watching". NOTE: IF YOU KNOW WHERE THAT QUOTE COMES FROM, YOU ARE FUCKING AWESOME! As I cross over Lenox, another cutie gave me a smile and a wave. Now I'm thinking that I might just be as dope as I think I am and officially, they love me in Manhattan!

TRUTH

At some point I lost the longing to create content. I have been on tumblr reblogging it up but have written very little. This is bogus! I also started writing for an online magazine and have fucked around and figured out a way to pimp out my good ideas.All of this explains why I stopped writing on this blog for a little over a month. I'm getting it together. PROMISE!

Who's Gonna Save My Soul Now?

  When I first heard this song I remember just thinking about how amazing Cee-lo's voice was. I loved it because it gave me permission to feel like shit and be completely unapologetic about it. I had been in love and now I was damaged. After that failed relationship, I got my self into another with the same guy because I LOVE THE PAIN! Truly I did it because I wanted to believe things could be different and fuck it, I'm awesome and who wouldn't want the opportunity to be awesome to me? Things were super fucking dope for a while. Im talking about the kind of dope that you don't even bother trying to explain to people because they'd swear you were making it up. Then things ended abruptly. I was left with this song stuck in my head.   

   "Yet I never stopped to wonder, is it possible you were hurting worse than me?" is a part of  the song that I had decided to move swiftly past because let me tell it, he had no feelings. Now, a year later, I have to acknowledge that he was.

Gotta do Better

I have to do better. I've been working a new project and getting my workout out on. I also have commited to running my first 5k and as you know I am not a runner but I've been training with the couch to 5k program so I am getting a lot better and am actually starting to enjoy it. I never thought that shit would happen but it is. Anyway, I'll be back to blogging with some regularity by the end of the week.

Because there's a song for every occasion

Its always nice to let someone know how dope you think they are.

Are they extinct like the dinosaurs?

    






 So after a few conversations with my girl the good Doctor, I started to wonder what the fuck is wrong with women? We are certainly at a stage in life where I'll say 98% of the women that I know are about their business/careers and in all attempts to make it to the next step in such but would give it all up (and throw in their left tit for good messure) to say that they were MRS.Poorunsuspectingsucker. Nevermind all the years of schooling and nights burning the midnight oil to get the job done, having a man  is way more important to them.
     Unfortunately some women wear their martial status like a badge of honor. Being married pushes a woman up in the ranks, thereby reigning supreme over her chronically single friends which wish nothing more in the world than to be just like her. As a married woman she has completed her life's goals. She can die knowing that her destiny has been fulfilled. Sound stupid? Of course it does!
     In real life you have to be a complete person and totally satisfied with yourself before picking someone else up. If you are looking for anything outside yourself to make you whole, you are in a world of trouble! If you told anyone that they could have a thing in its entirety or a fraction of that same thing for the same price, they'd take the thing in its entirety any day of the week! If someone else completes you then what happens when they aren't there?
   When I was a little girl I remember loving to watch the older girls and grown women and the way they moved. They all seemed to be so confident in who they were and damn you if you dared to question their flyness! What ever happened to the BETTY BADASS women of my childhood? This was the 90's and women were on their  independent shit! They professed to not NEED anyone but themselves. Where there are certainly some flaws to the way they did things, there is something to believing that you were dope (and dare I say, SEXY) all by yourself.

Inspiration Transcends Language

I went to bed with this song in my head and woke up with it so that means it must be shared! LA VIDA ES UN CARNIVAL ( Life is a Carnival) is one of my favorite Celia Cruz songs (ok so to be honest every song that she has ever made is my FAVORITE but follow me for the point...thanks) for lots of reasons. We will start with the fact that you will find it difficult to not move (unless you are totally rhythm- less in which case I feel sorry for you because you don't know what you're missing). Another reason is because the message is such a pure one. Although it doesn't sound as good in English, (honestly is has the slightest bit of cheesy-ness when translated) the idea that life has the ability to be an amazing experience if you let it, is always good to hear. Its very easy to get caught up in your "RIGHT NOW SITUATION". If you think about it, sitting down and being bleak requires minimal exertion on our part. Getting out of the funk and moving forward to enjoy life, is the hard part. Once you do, you'll realize that there are a million things, small and large, to smile about.